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How to be More Certain I Won’t Egotistically ‘Lose my Jesus’

I wish I could remember his name. He came to church a time or two and made an impression because he used unusual expressions, which were amusingly great! I specifically recall when he spoke about something tough he’d experienced at the hands of unkind people and said he’d chosen to walk away because he didn’t want to ‘lose his Jesus’. It was an engaging way of saying that he didn’t want to lose his cool – his integrity – for which he gave all credit to Jesus.

I’ve ‘lost my Jesus’ in the way this young man described. Have you? Maybe after being cut off in traffic, passed over for a promotion, or being told the lockdowns were going back into effect? Lately I have been trying to figure out how to be more certain I won’t egotistically ‘lose my Jesus’ in moments of selfishness.

I am genuinely impressed by the expressive truth in the phrase, ‘lose my Jesus’, which I have adopted into my vocabulary. Because here is the thing:

If we are going to lose our temper, we have to push Jesus aside to do it.

He put His Holy Spirit in us, and He bears love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. (Galatians 5:22, 23) In order for us to act differently, we have to ‘lose our Jesus’ and access our sinful, fleshly habits instead.

It is common to hear worship songs and sincere prayers which express the sentiment of wanting more of Jesus. I’ve sung that, I’ve prayed for that. Have you? I wonder if we really know what it means. Do we really expect more of Jesus? Wouldn’t that imply that we weren’t already given all that He has to give? Before He left the earth, He said:

“And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you for ever – the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. All this I have spoken while still with you.  But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.”

John 14: 16-17, 25-26

He didn’t say that He would send part of the Holy Spirit and we would be given more of Him, little by little, if we asked. He said that the Holy Spirit would teach us all things and remind us of everything Jesus said. We were given access to the whole of Jesus, through the Holy Spirit, when we accepted Him as our Savior.

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But I wasn’t a big space of nothingness walking around before He came in. I was completely full of me. I had my fleshly desires and selfish ambitions, and it was all-consuming. When I surrendered my life to Jesus, the lump sum of everything He promised became accessible to me. So why do I still get egotistical and ‘lose my Jesus’ sometimes when the going gets tough? I believe the answer is that:

I can only be filled with the Spirit to the extent that I empty myself of me. Sometimes I am predisposed to ‘lose my Jesus’ because I’m full of myself and pushing Him out.

Some days, my rights and my pride and everything to which I selfishly feel entitled, stay safely laid to rest and the Holy Spirit can surge in with power. He washes over me, fills me, and flows from me. But other days, I stubbornly resurrect my earthly treasure and I’m just so full of ‘it’ that there is very little room for the Holy Spirit. And that is when I ‘lose my Jesus’ at my kids, or at the TV, or wherever – maybe even at myself. When I’m shaken, that which fills will be what spills.

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It is wonderful to sing and pray for more of Jesus, so long as we realize what we’re implying. We are not saying it is His duty to give more of Himself. We are stating that we want to surrender to Him more of what we’ve been holding out. We are purposing to drain the vanity and ego and make space in our lives for all that He has given us.

We are certain not to egotistically ‘lose our Jesus’ when we are filled with Him. His presence will be what shines through to others. He will be noticed, especially, by the people who expect our temper but get our Jesus instead.

I wish I could remember that guy’s name. Maybe one day he’ll read this blog and let me know. Somehow I don’t think he’d mind that what lasted after our chance meeting was a greater understanding of how to be filled with the Holy Spirit as I have determined to be more certain I don’t egotistically ‘lose my Jesus’. He’d probably be thrilled to know that it was the name of Jesus, and not his name, which gets the remembrance and the glory.

“He must become greater; I must become less.”

John 3:30

17 replies on “How to be More Certain I Won’t Egotistically ‘Lose my Jesus’”

Oh, don’t I know it! Well, I don’t fish much, but I often think I’ve ‘hooked’ things just to find out that it wasn’t meant to be. Thanks for letting me know I’m not alone here!

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An old pastor once shared a saying that applies to those “Lose my Jesus” situations with others. He said . . .
” To live above with the folks we love, that will be glory. To live below with some folks we know, that’s another story”. 🙂

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“He’d probably be thrilled to know that it was the name of Jesus, and not his name, which gets the remembrance and the glory.”
I am certain this is true, otherwise he might “lose his Jesus” to pride. 😉

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” I don’t want to lose my Jesus” is such a powerful statement. This article has given me something to think about each time I’m about to lose my cool. God bless you 🙏

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