I recently noticed that the Back Porch now has more followers who do not know me from outside of it than those who do. It is my sincerest pleasure to have made so many new friends! I figured a sort of introduction post was in order and I tried to think of things which might be new to even my oldest pals. So here are 5 helpful little confessions about my life which might cause you know me a little bit better. I look forward to connecting with you over what we have in common, or anything else for that matter!
No. 1 Helpful little confession about my life:
Donuts for dinner – yes please! And brownies for breakfast; then let’s travel the world for lunch!
When it comes to food, dessert is my #1 favorite kind, but then my order of preference is: #2, Mexican; #3, Thai; #4, Indian; #5, Italian. I wanted to throw American in there somewhere, but honestly it would just be for the burgers and fries.
When I first met my husband, I rarely consumed junk food and I never ate late in the evening. He took me out to eat after work one night (which was decadent for me in itself) and we ended up at a burger and donut place, where he convinced me to get both! He might be the origin of my donuts for dinner weakness. If so, I adore him for it!
No. 2 Helpful little confession about my life:
Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus…
Even sweeter than donuts for dinner is daily life with my Lord. I cannot tell you the joy and peace and unconditional acceptance I have enjoyed in His presence. “You can have all this world, just give me Jesus.” (“Give me Jesus”, song by Fernando Ortega).
It hasn’t always been so easy for me to say that, though. I remember a time, soon after I’d gotten engaged that I was striving with God over who sat on the throne of my heart. I had put my soon-to-be hubby there and I didn’t want to take him down. I wrestled for quite a while before I was able say, and sincerely mean, that I was willing to prioritize everything and everyone in surrender to Jesus. But since I’ve done that, I haven’t regretted it for a second!
No. 3 Helpful little confession about my life:
When there’s a will, there’s a wave.
I may occasionally eat donuts for dinner, but I must be consistent with my doses of vitamin Sea. I love the beach. I love everything about it. I have a short mantra when the going gets tough – a FantaSEA, if you will. Click here to daydream it with me.
It is my hope to retire and live at the beach. In this dream of my future self, I meander daily in the sand, picking up sea glass and seashells to weave into macramé treasures between bouts of writing to the sound of the pounding surf outside my open windows. If God’s vision for my future differs from mine, I’ve asked him for the option of extended vacations which resemble my fancy. We shall see!
No. 4 Helpful little confession about my life:
Not long enough!
My husband does not eat donuts for dinner, and we also have very different takes on down time. I write, tinker with things or watch Hallmark movies, and he plays video games or listens to/watches sports related programs. To his relief, I have banned him from watching the Hallmark channel with me because I can hear his eyes rolling. And all is well, as I don’t appreciate the banter of the sportscasters either.
One big exception was something he saw and relayed to me. A sports announcer was being inducted to the Hall of Fame and an interviewer asked him how long he’d been married. He looked at his wife and said “Not long enough”. This one sentence may have brought the worlds of sports and Hallmark together for one glorious moment and I have adopted (stolen?) this answer forever more. How long have my husband and I been married? Not long enough!
I often mention my husband, my 5 kids, my 3 grandkids, and even my dog in my posts. None of that is likely new to you, unless you’ve recently followed the Back Porch. Everyone knows I’d like donuts for dinner. With only one confession left in this post, I’m torn about what to say. I think I’ll go with…
No. 5 Helpful little confession about my life
A realization in association with dissociation.
One more helpful little confession about my life is that I live in a household with 9 people. As an introvert, that can be a struggle, over which I have done quite a bit of praying and soul-searching. I love my people, but I need to recharge away from them, in order to be my best for them, and alone time is difficult to come by.
The other day my daughter asked, “Mom, do you think you’re dissociative?”
“What does that mean exactly?” I queried.
“I think it is like- you check out of the chaos and kind of float above it in your mind, so you don’t fully experience it”, she said.
“Sounds heavenly, I hope so.” I replied dreamily. To which she warned “But it can be a bad thing because you don’t get to feel the good stuff either.”
“Do you think I’m dissociative?” I wondered aloud.
“Maybe”, she responded. “You don’t seem as frenzied (I think that was the word she used) as you used to be.” I reflected and realized I have been calmer in some situations lately which used to cause me full blown panic attacks.
I’ve come to the realization that I don’t think dissociation is the right description of where I’m at. Instead, I think God is answering my prayers and teaching me how to turn inward to the place where He resides in me. Right smack in the midst of chaos, He is a place of rest; a reprieve from the commotion, my own little introvert’s haven.
“The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”Psalm 18:2
“How priceless is your unfailing love, O God! People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.”Psalm 36:7
Well, there you have it – Donuts for dinner and 5 more helpful little confessions about my life. Please comment and tell me something about you that I don’t already know. Do we have intersecting interests? Are we completely opposite? Tell me anything! When I know so little about you, everything is intriguing. I look forward to getting to know you better!